Today is a special day; Allen and Rachel got married.
Allen is the man God used to lead me to Christ. When I was in high school and didn’t know of my sinfulness and God’s grace, Allen met up with me and bought me dinner every other week. He was one of the most busy people I knew and lived very far from me, but he would drive to Glendale after work to have dinner with me.
We often went to Zankou chicken together and just talk about our weeks. Allen always asked me how I was doing spiritually and I could not really answer well because I wasn’t saved at the time, although I thought I was. I was a cultural christian who didn’t really understand the gospel, but followed the teachings and laws just because I was taught to obey them.
Allen asked me this one question that would change my life: ‘When your time here on Earth is done and go to face God and his judgement, what will you say to God to save yourself? What can you tell Him that will convince Him to let you enter the kingdom of Heaven?”
Many thoughts came to my mind: ‘I did some good works’, ‘I’m an obedient child’, ‘I never swear’, ‘I’m a nice person’, ‘I read the bible sometimes’, ’ I believe in God and Jesus’, ‘I don’t sin as much as most people I know’.
But all of these reasons I knew it wouldn’t convince God to let me into His kingdom.
And then I realized I was a helpless sinner who can’t save myself. I can’t save myself with good works or by fulfilling certain conditions. Through Allen, God taught me that through God’s grace alone I am saved and nothing else.
My whole life, I thought I was a christian who have secured a spot in Heaven, but I did not know the Gospel. I did not know how much of a sinner I was. I did not know God’s grace. I did not know God’s divine love for us. I did not know anything until God sent Allen to my life.
Allen is, to me, a very special brother who I am indescribably thankful for. I was very emotional throughout the wedding, I’ve never been so genuinely happy for someone in a while. My heart was filled with joy and praise watching him getting married.
Congratulations, my dear brother whom I love so much.